We just returned from a great vacation to the Outer Banks in North Carolina. It was so fun to sit on the beach and watch the kids play. We had fun visiting Kitty Hawk and going out to eat. Joe and I took naps every afternoon while the kids watched TV or played video games. It was heaven.
Sadly now I'm back to reality. I'll have my mastectomy on Friday the 13th. My cousin Sarah's birthday is on July 13th and she insists that her birthday negates any connotation that Friday the 13th may be a day of bad luck. I'm hoping she is right.
So this week I am preparing for surgery. I'm lucky that I have family around to help out with the kids. They will be well taken care of. My friend who just had a mastectomy is taking me to Hope's Boutique to shop for a mastectomy bra and prosthesis since I'm not having any reconstruction done until 2013.
I have such mixed feelings about this surgery. I have wanted to have this surgery since day one. I want this cancer out of my body. On the other hand I have felt so much anxiety about having a disfigured body. I know things can be worse but it's still hard to deal with. I'm hoping that I will adapt to this new phase of cancer just like I adapted to losing my hair. It was hard at first but eventually I got used to it.
Anyway, that is about all of the time I have this week to dedicate to my blog. These next few days are going to fly by.